Saturday, September 26, 2009

Teoh’s fiancee starts blog to share views on life and death

IPOH: Teoh Beng Hock’s fiancee has entered the blogosphere to express her feelings and views on life and death.

Soh Cher Wei, whose blog “Don’t Say Goodbye” (, has just published a poem-like post which describes how she has been coping after his death.

Soh wrote that the two of them had been unlucky as those with self-interests had treated them like pawns in a game of chess.

“In the end, you are blamed (and) you are also gone forever,” she said.

She noted that it would be better for Teoh to be living “in the other world” than here.

She said she was only putting up a brave front now so as not to let others worry about her.

“The right to choose is not within my hands from the start. I have no option to say ‘No’, I have no right to object. I could only obey and follow the given path. I have no choice at all,” she wrote in the Mandarin blog.

In the Sept 23 entry, entitled “Am I Happy?”, Soh said with the people around her at ease, she would feel less sorry for herself.

Soh lamented that no one could provide her with an answer.

Despite all these upheavals, Soh gave her word that she would not commit suicide as she did not want to end up in hell, never to be reincarnated.

“We will then be apart as you are in heaven,” she wrote.

Before she ended, Soh said she would be reunited with Teoh after his death was avenged.

“Only death by old age awaits me now,” she said.

A check yesterday found that the blog had garnered 57 comments, mostly words of encouragement.